Thinking About the Big Picture in 2012
I should rephrase that to read “trying to think about the bib picture in 2012.” It hasn’t been easy. I seem to be stuck in self created limbo. It has been hard to move out of this limbo. Sometimes I wish I could be apathetic and not care about the world, or myself. I think that it would be easier to live my own life. However, I know that this really would not create any change. To ignore my own feelings and connection to the world would be to relinquish the will to live. There are already to many people out there that have given up all hope. They no longer care about if they seek after truth.
Sometimes, seeking after the truth you will discover issues about yourself that you don’t like. You can find issues that you don’t want to be involved in. But, this is life. Life is how we choose to take these struggles and help ourselves, and communities to become better.
Even though I might be in a rut, I know that I will not be there for long. I will keep on attempting to find the solution until I do. What else am I going to do? Give up? Nah, I don’t think that would make anything better. That would only be adding petrol to a burning building.
I will continue to search out the big picture in 2012. I think that is one reason I have been attracted to landscape images for the past few weeks. I can’t see the details right now, I am searching for the whole shebang! Step back and trying to take it all in.
January 6th, 2012 at 12:20 pm
Thank you for this heartfelt post Jacob. Everyone should try and certainly not give up.
January 6th, 2012 at 6:31 pm
Think of the unmotivated rut periods as fallow time. We are like soil that becomes depleted after producing a crop and needs a season to recharge nutrients. You simply cannot run creativity like a car – it moves in cycles and you have have to flow with the energy availability like a surfer waiting for a wave. The emotions that go with fallow periods are also important times for reflection and doubt which are also important fuel for your next positive creative wave.
January 7th, 2012 at 1:08 am
thank you doug,
that means a lot to me.
i know that we all go through these moments,
and better work is to come.